Sad things in July

This month, begin with the grief. The first is the sadness that I was unable to obtain a doctoral scholarship. Secondly, my family's pet cat, Srintil died. Though Srintil is a cat with a level of intelligence above the average and his age is not even two years old. The third sorrow that just happened two days ago was I again lost friends because of miscommunication that can not be avoided.

All this makes me think, it seems this is a warning from God to me. For some reason all the events that occur repeatedly in the first ten days of July. To be honest, the third one make me confused how to handle it. Previously we had ever had a similar problem but then melts again at the beginning of this year. I am very sorry if finally he gets angry or something because of that misunderstanding. I didn't mean it. Probably most of this is my fault and I apologized. But that's .. It was just sad ..

Menjadi produktiflah kamu!

Sebenarnya ini gara-gara baca bukunya Muhammad Assad yang judulnya Notes From Qatar itu. Well, ga sejelas itu juga sih dia menggambarkan kita untuk produktif. Tapi setelah baca buku itu entah kenapa rasa-rasanya kok akhir-akhir ini kurang banyak berbuat sesuatu yang lebih gitu. Semisal ngetwit ga lagi seantusias dulu, maksudnya ngetwit yang berguna.. Nulis di blog juga ga seaktif dulu.. Padahal dulu bawaannya pingin nulis terus.. yah mungkin ada masa-masanya mengalami kejenuhan. Tapi kan ga boleh gitu ya kalau untuk kebaikan.. Akhirnya, di tengah ketidakpastian, ketidaksempurnaan, ketidaknyamanan ini saya berusaha sekali untuk mencegah kemalasan dan kebosanan yang sesungguhnya tidak berguna itu. Ini bukan janji.. bukan.. cuma tiba-tiba aja sadar ternyata sudah lalai..

Hypophrenia

Last saturday I received this message from my friend in training center. She informed me that I failed due to selection for doctoral scholarship from my office. Somehow I felt okay with that decision and accepted it sincerely. But that didn't last.. As a human being I feel quite dissapointed and sad. Literally, hypophrenia defined as a feeling of sadness seemingly without a case. Perhaps that what happened to me lately. Quite sad for nothing. Sometimes I think that happened due to my period. And actually, it did. So, am I gonna say myself in hypohrenia condition? I don't think so. It's just happened by accident I guess..